soaking wet left foot

it is thursday today.

i have been in a lull since yesterday at about 6.45pm.

i blame time. there is just too little of it sometimes.

maybe it's because there are moments in your life that you want to prolong and in thinking about it - you worry about the time and eventually worrying about time only makes it so that you aren't enjoying it to its fullest and sooner or later you realize that it is escaping you. and eventually it does just end.


this week has been lovely. despite the fact that i have lost a great deal of motivation to do much of what needs to be done. but news on the work front might just give me that extra needed push to get my act in gear.

monday

first official trial on the Gazelle Edge. timed and logged.

a 20 minute break for lunch and a snipit of a movie turned into a 2 hour screening of Ever After. I've seen it before - but once you start a movie you don't want to stop it. at about 3pm, my brother phoned me and the plans were set in motion to visit Mr. Finn Finnerty at good ol' Dundas & Bathurst hospital.

He was in for his second hip replacement surgery. Mike and I spent about an hour and a half with Finn & Linda, again on his last night in the hospital (as we did during his first surgery a few months back). It was lovely to see both of them again.

And man - did he ever score a stellar view of the city from his room.

Finn was doing well when we saw him. We bought him a stuffed bear with a cast on his leg to encourage him through this second healing process. We both signed the cast for fun. :)

Later that evening, I was able to grab a mini moment with Magali to catch up on life since her summer travels. much too short but enjoyable none the less.

tuesday

busy day. it all started on a bad note. a two hour phone call with Bell to deal with almost 400$ of over charges on our first bill. not my happiest of mornings. and now, the classic part of this entire moment, is that they have since called twice trying to get to speak to the person who set up the account - and both times, kim and i have not been here, and both times they were arrogantly rude to hannah - who by nature is a very kind & gentle person. so they are now harrasing us with very hostile tones. I look forward to their next phone call.

none the less, the day must go on.

today was the day that i would find out that i have a hole in my left shoe. which would explain why that foot always feels wet from the bottom up when it rains..

add shoes to the shopping list.

I spent the afternoon with Shawna. we walked through the rain to the Yonge & Eglinton centre. dined at the Pickle Barrel, with a window seat overlooking the gloomy fall day. now - one thing to note for any dinning experiences with the Pickle Barrel - read the menu fully - like word for word. i was craving a burger and decided on this lovely little number that talked about a greek feta burger served with vegetables and a side salad. yummy. what i DIDN'T read was that it never said it was served on a bun. and better yet - i got a burger, served on top of a bed of grilled veggies, with a pile of feta sprinkled overtop.

hmmm. it was still good - but it was just silly.

quick trip to Toys R' Us for a candy fix. and on our way.

we hit up famous players (which for the record, i do not wish to support as they do NOT have matinee prices for the general public - what is up with that???) and caught Scorsese's new film "The Departed".

good movie. but...

i can't say that i was feeling all gung ho after seeing about 20 people get their brains blown to bits...

i'm reading from the book of Joshua right now - which follows the story of Israel's conquest over the Promised Land. Eerie in the depiction of the violent battles that occured back in the day.

now - might not seem like much - but with both the stories i'm reading in the bible and watching a movie such as the Departed, i sit and wonder.

i'm not going to say that the movie glorified violence - cause it wasn't it's sole purpose. but it is about life in the mob and with that, the murderous and violent realities will be played onscreen. and trust me, there were some terrible moments in that film. great acting, but terrible moments.

i wonder. if someone goes into that movie and takes in the information in the complete opposite way that i did. they take it as a great inspiration. they feel encouraged from the film. they cheer on the violence that they see.

and i wonder, cause i'm not really someone who was ever bothered by violence in films. i love a good action movie - trust me. give me a good fighting movie any day - and i will enjoy it. but for some reason, maybe it's my headspace with life - this one struck me.

i wonder if someone who has never read the bible and doesn't understand the history of Christianity - if they randomly opened up the bible to the book of Joshua - how would they react - would they cheer on the constant stream of violence or would they shut the book in disgust, claiming hypocracy among the Christian faith due to the violence, without understanding the backstory.

maybe these two things don't relate at all. maybe they do. in my moment - these two different streams have crossed my mind and made me think a lot lately.

and now i'm just rambling. for all those dedicated readers who are still with me - you all get gold stars.

TUESDAY night - i had the lovely opportunity to spend the night at the Smiling Buddha Bar with some fellow FTers to catch a glimpse of Andrew perform his work as Songs to Wear Pants To as well as Joel & Anne Clayton Ravine. It was a great night out. i'm sad that we left when we did - cause the band that followed had a chill sound.

five minutes turns into late night travels.

people took notice. things are changing.
i loved every minute of being with you.

wednesday

baked a batch of blondies for the first time. i love making my living room guinea pigs. poor guys. although they were a hit. sent out the mass email for softball - game this saturday - and boy have i been looking forward to getting back out on the field and tossing the ball.

can't say that my wednesday was very eventful. it was very scattered. heard word about a job prospect that was on a limb (which has since cleared).

hmmm. very scattered indeed.

ttc date to osgoode station where the pizza makers parted ways. waited forever for the streetcar and none the less was terribly early for dan's place. so i strolled around queen & greenwood. probably not the best of neighbourhoods for walking alone at night as a little lady - but very picturesque - there were some real quaint nooks in the area. if only i had my digi cam with me.

living room was lovely. becky, dan, sue and i. played catch up with becky who has been away from us for a while now. chilled out and listened to a sermon by the preacher at Redeemer Presbyterian in NY city. It was a great sermon on faith. The ladies traveled back into the heart of the city and dispersed.

all night my heart was restless. at home, nothing felt right. i was in a strange place.

this is where bedtime is heavenly. sleeping always brings hope that tomorrow will be different.

thursday

today. was a good day.

that's a lie. maybe i'm just saying that cause the day is done.

it was a long day. it was the type of day where you wish it was tomorrow and you watch the clock and it's almost like it's purposely not moving forward at all. painfully slow day almost.

but it's the type of blog where i tell you details - so here they are.

it's just that type of blog day.

i did errands. i filled a very old prescription and am actively trying to solve this problem. but can i tell ya something - readin the three page print out from shoppers when you get a new prescription can sometimes be discouraging. the side effects and long term effects of this one prescription made me think twice. ack.

i did the dumb thing of going to shoppers right as the high school nearby was on lunch break. man - walking in front of that place is like a warzone. they take over the sidwalk. and worse - because i might actually blend in with that age group - i sometimes wonder if someone will ever say something to me.

i emailed people today. maybe that sounds boring - but it's important. catching up with long lost friends and cleaning out a cluttered email account.

puttering around in my boxes of unimportant paper that for some reason i've latched onto. i'm such a pack rat.

and i'm working on it.

went shoe shopping with anton tonight. found out that i could wear a size 4.5 in boys - and will now consider kids' shoe shopping as they are cheaper and tax free. yay to being small footed.

did some mall browsing. did some 7eleven hiking. did some candy buying. did some catch uping. did some movie watching. oh 1985 - the year of the fantasy film (as anton would say).

and - i saw a preview of the spec spot. looking good boys.

home at a late hour. bed time. fitting tomorrow. and maybe some karaoke with the old gang.

i'm so happy that it's now Friday.

good night