i got called ma'am TWICE today - what gives?

i am officially a geek. i am the proud new owner of a paper shredder.

let me explain - outside of the fact that i did in fact name the paper shredder from my days on Wild Card - (really, i don't think that should count - cause his name was Monster and it was because he looked like a cyclopse for real) - it adds to my office supply nerdiness.

so - i continue with the purging of my life. Mind you - i'm less purgy lately cause my parents recently suggested that when I travel I should simply rent out a storage space instead of moving my boxed items back home. Either they really don't want to see my stuff at their house (don't blame them) or it's really more convenient for me to have it all in the city for when I return.

Either way - for some reason i've been more lax with my purging.

In comes mr. paper shredder. I have bills from 8-10 years ago in my files. At least a whole banker's box full. On the bills - banking information as i'm very addament with how I file my billing and keep track of all my payment records - cause you know one day something is going to nip you in the butt - and you'll have proof otherwise. I'm not a fan of just tossing paper like that - with sensitive information. And i'm also not a huge fan of tearing paper piece by piece - cause i'm compulsive at times and would want the darn pieces of paper to be small enough to cover any pertinent information -which in the end would drive me insane.

instead - i buy a paper shredder. i think my brother called it an early birthday present for myself. am i that nerdy?

i think it's a valid reason to own a paper shredder - that and the fact that it does make sense to eventually own one in the future with my job and working through the industry with sensitive information and whatnot. not with my job as a PA (hahaha), but more so when i return and focus on producing within the film industry.

Lame.

yes.


I posted on MEC for a rock climbing partner. I have wanted to join a gym for years now - and every partner i've teamed up with has not been able to commit to any regular schedule. It's sad. Also - with my work - i'm all over the place. But herein lies the beauty of the rock climbing gym...they're generally open until 11pm. There are some people who have mentioned interest - and i am very much still interested in hitting up the wall with these fine folk - but i would like to commit more time to this. It's part of my training for me trip. I can't do regular gyms - cause most of the fitness machines destroy my knees. Fine by me - i'll take the challenge of a vertical climb over an exercise bike any day.

mind you - somedays i wish i could bike again. boo.


it's raining today. it warmed up this week. but i was thinking about snow. we're past the beautiful colour changing part of fall - we're now into the dreary middle state awaiting the official arrival of winter. but then comes that first snowfall. i love walking outside in the middle of the night when the snow just starts to fall from the sky and just enough builds up on the ground so that people take notice - but not too much that it becomes a hazard to walk/drive in.

soon enough.

i'm not wishing for its arrival just yet.

however - i would like to go toboganning on my birthday. i've been wanting this for years - it's never snowy enough. oh well.


i'm at the airport before the crack of dawn tomorrow to pick up our director and our writer from their time in LA. i can't sleep in. wish me luck.


i am blessed.

and i honestly just want to talk about it all the time. not in a gloating fashion. not to rub it in other people's faces - but more just because it wants to burst out of me.

being blessed doesn't mean everything is peachy keen - heck no. it's more an understanding of where you are at in your life and for me, I feel blesed when I am in sync with God and feel that i might have an understanding of where He wants me in my life right now and embracing the good, the bad and understanding why He has brought either situation my way.

when i feel like this - i feel like my smile comes out more - on my face, through my actions, through my words.

there was something about how i interacted with these three people at Price Choppers this morning that made my day that much brighter. it was the quality customer service provided by the cashier and the two gentlemen who i had lined up with. i can't explain it fully. there was a beauty in the way we all communicated. the two gentlemen were deaf. we became entangled in this random price check situation and somehow met again paying for our items. they wished me a good day. i was smiling the entire time. everyone was. it's difficult to describe a moment like this - but it was what i needed.

when you're in good spirits you realize how much lighter your heart is. how much brighter the day really does feel.

a simple ten minute conversation on MSN today gave me strength to get through the day.

work has gotten a lot better. and i'm at peace with it all. and i think the way i handled things last week is really becoming evident in the shift with the problem.

the Sadie crew that has joined in on this feature make it really feel like home.

my first letter of recommendation came in the mail today. this taught me that placing a letter in the mail at night on a monday in the city of toronto CAN actually get to another location in Toronto by tuesday afternoon. Thank you Julie - a million times over.

I hope i'm doing the right thing.

LR tomorrow night - movie times at Dan's place. He has a projector and a screen that covers a large portion of one of the walls in his living room.

I finally have my specialist appointment lined up. January 10th, 2007. on the plus side - i think that one of the medications might be working. but it's difficult to tell. i'll let the experts tell me.

blessed. for so many reasons.

thank You.

thank you to my friends, family, community, and coworkers for being lights in my life.


and thanks be to you. you make my every day brighter.

three nights.

i still get lost in this smile.



it's nine. i have to make dinner. i have to go to bed at some odd hour to ensure the pure avoidance of sleeping in.

i'm encouraged. there are new adventures on the horizon.

My brother...

...the clown.